Reserve, restore and refill

The past week has been a downpour of stressful situations. As amazing as girls camp was, there were many late nights leading up to it that really took a toll on my body. Those things never go 100% as planned and that can, and did add to my stress levels.

Immediately after camp our car decided to pack up and die leaving us stranded. I have no idea how I will get to work each day or how we are going to purchase a new car.

That afternoon we witnessed a 6 year old girl get hit by a car on our street. I called the ambulance and had to console the babysitter who was in a serious state of shock. I was also responsible for phoning the mother to tell her that little Ava was being taken by an Ambulance to Starship hospital- that was probably the most difficult conversation I have ever had. Tuks jumped straight out onto the street to begin directing the traffic. I love him and the way he reacts to stressful situations.

Sleep time finally came, but I woke up at 3am with terrible nausea, a fever and aching muscles. While feeling sick and spending the morning organizing a tow truck for our car I still had to go into school because there was no reliever available.

My landlord called  and told us she was raising the rent and that I couldn't leave my bike inside anymore....there was nothing to eat for dinner.... my eyebrows have grown an inch thick.... and  finally when I was at Mutual I realized my energy was completely depleted.

I have done a lot of reading about energy in the past so know that we only have a certain amount. This energy needs to be conserved and restored and in times of stress I need to keep giving back to myself to refill my tank.

So I took today off to do absolutely nothing. I went for a small walk and sat the rest of the day in my PJ's allowing myself time to BE with myself. It has been wonderful and I realize that when I don't take time to do this I become stressed, irritable and not the type of person I want to be in the world.

I spent some part of today reflecting on the interactions I have had with others in the last few days and I truly believe we are all connected to each others energy fields. Whenever I walk into my classroom, my office, spend time at Young Women's, on the phone with the mechanic or strangers on the road my energy is either restored or taken away from me. I realize there are people that I associate with regularly who sap me of my energy and I need to find a way to put up a barrier to keep their negative vibes away.

I also have a couple of energy idols- people whose energy amazes me President Orgill ( President of the PCC) is one. I have no idea what I would do if I had to wake up at 4am like him. And there is nobody like my good friend Erin. How does she do that? And with four kids!

Energy is the essence of life and I need to decide everyday how I am going to use it. Situations can be as stressful or carefree as I choose. And that, for me is the key- it is MY choice.